My Digital World

It is said that you cannot compare an apple with an orange. Some of the poeple did still compare the apple with the orange. Why? That is also the reason what I also want to know.

This weekend, I chat with a very good friend of mine. We used to be neighbours. I met her when I lived in the building where I live now. I was very surprised by her English, which is fluently and typical British English that I like very much.

I did not know when our friendship started. But our friendship grew very fast and we became best friends. She was also the first girl who I saw crying in front of my face. I think, I am also the first guy who could make her cry too. I used to think I knew her well, which is finally not the case when she started a relationship with a guy. She also mentioned that we were totally different kind of people, which I did not understand untill I realised later that we are indeed an apple and a orange. There is still something I do not understand, which is why an apple can be mixed up with an orange. Would it better if the apple has never met the orange? The apple has brought the orange many tears....

Yesterday, I got into a chat with her. She suddenly popped up with the question "how much do you cherish this friendship?". First of all, I was quite surprise by this question. Second, I absolutely do not like chatting serious stuff such as this through the digital way.

I answered her with "Where did you this idea from?" She said: "This is not an answer!". Although I wanted to know where this idea came from, she fired me with "This is not an answer!". Without any idea where this thought came from, since we were chatting about her trip which will be next week, I answered "This is not a thing that I can measure or easy to tell. What I can say, is that you are still my good friend." It was a tough chat with her. I noticed again that we are an apple and an orange, since she did not get what my message is.

I do not know what I can tell about she and me. When I said that we were different kind of people and that is why she did not understand me well. She immediatly says "why am I the person who does not understand you, why isn't you that you do not understand me?". It was not an easy chat, since I have to be careful to not harm her and I tried to be as clear as possible with what I want to say. To be quite honest, I was pretty sad after that chat. It is not the way how she reacts, but it is because the lack of understanding of both of us: she is mine very good friend, she did not know me well. Why???
I thought it might be my fault that she did not know me well, since I am not a person who is easy to understand. But how come that Airin knows me so well?!

She mentioned about that the feeling of what we had in the past is kind of lost. For me, it was not a kind of surprise, because we rarely meet each other and rarely have a chat, although we used to see each other daily. She said that this was not the reason. But in my opinion, when we used to see each other daily and when you just see each other for maybe once or twice a year, then the feeling is somehow not the same as it was. But she thought that this was not an issue.

Anyway, let me cut off this. It is now 11pm + and tomorrow I had to get up at 4am+. Yesterday, I chatted with her till 2am++. If I did not cherish her as my good friend, I definitely would not chat till so late, since I usually sleep at 12am.